Engagement Illusion

I guess I always imagined that when I would reach the point of someone asking for my hand in marriage, I'd have a lot more figured out than I do. Maybe he thought the same thing to be honest! ha. I imagined that I'd feel "put together" and "right on track" with where I'm headed and what I'm doing. Truthfully, I'm more daunted than ever with what's ahead as far as creating a non-profit, writing and having a giant dream but not knowing the step ahead of me. The butterflies and rainbows did happen in the moment when Justin got on one knee, but no one tells you that afterwards, you don't suddenly feel like Cinderella post Fairy Godmother. (thanks, Disney.)  

Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy and joyful and fuzzy, but at the same time I'm planning a wedding and building a career and living in NYC... It's a bit overwhelming! 

The main point I want to make is that Prince Charming is an illusion of what life should be all about. I love Justin more than anyone, but I wouldn't even be able to love him if I didn't love Jesus and in turn, myself. It's ONLY through faith and God's grace that I'm able to love him, have a peace about the future and not be a panicking maniac. Jesus is the real MVP in this life & I encourage you to focus more on Him and less on the romanticized idea of any earthly fulfillment. Also, make sure your future man understands that Jesus is #1 in your dream life. I'm so thankful that Justin knows the power and love of Jesus and His sovereignty in our lives. 

Cheers to the future! 

-AB